Hope there's someone
Who'll take care of me
When I die, will I go

Hope there's someone
Who'll set my heart free
Nice to hold when I'm tired

There's a ghost on the horizon
When I go to bed
How can I fall asleep at night
How will I rest my head

Oh I'm scared of the middle place
Between light and nowhere
I don't want to be the one
Left in there, left in there

There's a man on the horizon
Wish that I'd go to bed
If I fall to his feet tonight
Will allow rest my head

So here's hoping I will not drown
Or paralyze in light
And godsend I don't want to go
To the seal's watershed

Hope there's someone
Who'll take care of me
When I die, Will I go

Hope there's someone
Who'll set my heart free
Nice to hold when I'm tired

Hoy fui a la psicóloga, después de tantos meces de posponerlo y negarlo.
El panorama no fue nada alentador...ni esperaba que lo fuera. Tendría que ir dos veces por semana y llamar a una psicopedagoga (tal como imagine).
No creo hacer ninguna de las dos cosas.


Cuando volvia para casa, me tome unos minutos en la plaza para llorar tranquila...era temprano y no había nadie. Creo que ese panorama fue menos alentador todabía. No me gusta llorar en la calle/colectivos. Lo odio, me hace sentir una estúpida. Pero esta ves no pude tolerar la angustia.
De la nada, salió un chico con una flor y me la dejo en las piernas

"No tendria que haber motivos para que una chica tan linda llorara...pero el mundo es muy injusto".
Y se fue...

Y tenía tanta razón...él no se dio cuenta, pero me dijo la verdad más cruda del mundo. El mundo no es justo, con nadie. Y yo le tengo miedo a eso y a todo...
De ese chico solo voy a recordar lo blancas que eran sus manos.

-A mi me parece que lo verdaderamente temible en esta vida no es el pánico en sí mismo. -dijo el hombre unos instantes después-. El miedo existe. Eso es indudable. Se nos muestra bajo distintas formas y, a veces, domina nuestras vidas. Pero lo más temible de todo es dar la espalda a ese miedo y cerrar los ojos. Actuando de esta manera acabamos cedíendole a algo lo más valioso que hay en nuestro interior. En mi caso..., ese algo fue una ola.

En mi caso fue una mujer, una persona, un minuto, un día...una vida...

Me pregunto que me diría Murakami en un día como hoy...Tendría tantas respuestas...o tantos cilencios para mi.

Totalmente decidido.

Tengo ganas de cambiar de aires...conocer gente nueva, otros grupos.
Ya son años de lo mismo y me pudre tener que lidear con las mismas actitudes de siempre.

Nada cambia...todo sigue igual.

En realidad, lo que más duele y por lo que más ganas me dan de irme es porque jamás me imagine que para ciertas personas que pense que eran amigos de la vida...para ellos en realidad soy una persona facilmente reemplazable.
Que defraudante.

Te amo, te amo, te amo, te amo, te amo, te amo, te amo, te amo, te amo, te amo, te amo, te amo, te amo, te amo, te amo, te amo, te amo, te amo, te amo, te amo, te amo, te amo, te amo, te amo, te amo, te am...Mucho.

Quiero ver esa película yaaaaaaaaaaaaa. La extraño tanto tanto.

Ahh...necesitaba descargarlo...me hicite tan feliz...y ni te lo imaginas.

Estoy muy cansada...Ya estoy muy cansada...

Space Bound

We touch I feel a rush
We clutch it isn't much
But it's enough to make me wonder whats in store for us
It's lust, it's torturous 
You must be a sorceress 'cause you just
Did the impossible
Gained my trust don't play games it'll be dangerous
If you fuck me over
'Cause if I get burnt imma show you what it's like to hurt
'Cause I been treated like dirt before you
And love is "evol"
Spell it backwards I'll show you

Nobody knows me I'm cold
Walk down this road all alone
It's no one's fault but my own
It's the path I've chosen to go
Frozen as snow I show no emotion whatsoever so
Don't ask me why I have no love for these motherfucking hoes
Bloodsucking succubus, what the fuck is up with this?
I've tried in this department but I ain't had no luck with this
It sucks but it's exactly what I thought it would be
Like trying to start over
I got a hole in my heart, I'm some kind of emotional rollercoaster
Something I won't go on 'til you toy with my emotion, so it's over
It's like an explosion every time I hold you, I wasn't joking when I told you
you take my breathe away
You're a supernova... and I'm a

I'm a space bound rocket ship and your heart's the moon
And I'm aiming right at you
Right at you
250 thousand miles on a clear night in June
And I'm aiming right at you
Right at you
Right at you

I do whatever it takes
When I'm with you I get the shakes
My body aches when I ain't
With you I have zero strength
There's no limit on how far I would go
No boundaries, no lengths
Why do we say that until we get that person that we thinks
Gonna be that one and then once we get 'em it's never the same?
You want them when they don't want you
Soon as they do feelings change
It's not a contest and I ain't on no conquest for no mate
I wasn't looking but I stumbled onto you must've been fate
But so much is at stake what the fuck does it take
Let's cut to the chase
But a door shuts in your face
Promise me if I cave in and break and leave myself open
That I won't be making a mistake

So after a year and 6 months it's no longer me that you want
But I love you so much it hurts
Never mistreated you once
I poured my heart out to you
Let down my guard swear to god
I'll blow my brains in your lap
Lay here and die in your arms
Drop to my knees and I'm pleading
I'm trying to stop you from leaving
You won't even listen so fuck it
I'm trying to stop you from breathing
I put both hands on your throat
I sit on top of you squeezing
'Til I snap you neck like a Popsicle stick
Ain't no possible reason I could think of to let you walk up out this house
And let you live
Tears stream down both of my cheeks
Then I let you just go and just give
And before I put that gun to my temple
I told you this

And I would've done anything for you
To show you how much I adored you
But it's over now
It's too late to save our love
Just promise me you'll think of me every time you look up in the sky and see a star 'cause imma

I'm a space bound rocket ship and your heart's the moon
And I'm aiming right at you
Right at you
250 thousand miles on a clear night in June
And I'm so lost without you
Without you
Without you.